31 10 2010

ya Allah..pada siapa harus aku mengadu kalau bukan padaMu ya Allah..mengapa perkara yg sama asyik berulang ya Allah..ape yg harus aku buat..ape yg harus aku fikir..besok final yg sgt penting ya Allah..tp nape aku masih xdpt ketenangan ya Allah..nape hati aku berbolak balik ya Allah..adakah aku telah dibuang? aku pun xtaw..hmm aku cube kuatkan hati aku untuk tabah mghadapi ujian Mu ya Allah..aku redha..mgkin ini takdir Mu untuk ku..aku redha kalau ini yg trbaik untuk kau dan aku..maafkan sgale kesalahan aku..halalkan sgale2 ilmu, makan, minum yg tlah kau beri..smoga berbahagia...

samb 20 10 2010

another presents received..

this is from him..

this is also from him..

and this is from my beloved sis..kak auni...

thanx for giving all these presents...

20 10 2010

thanx korang..blanje makan..hehe..

ISK..kak fareha & kak amira..semoga ilmu yg kite peroleh dpt dimanfaatkan..

sayang korang sume...

thanx sakinah for the cutest purse i've ever had...

19 10 2010

arini aku ok sket kowt..

alhamdulillah..

tp xde sape taw ape dlm ati aku..

cam dijangke..another paper received..

bio..

it was WORST..

haih..

tape la..yg penting da cube yg trbaik..

tp yg klakanye ade hati nak tmbah mark kat soalan yg da dpt full mark..

haha..xpasal2 kene sound ngan lecturer..

segan giler laaa...

next petang my gurlfrenz blanje mkn kfc..

kat summit..

2 un cadangan aku..

haha..demanding giler laaa...

btw thanx gurlz..it was awesome!!

tp ntah la..

sejak balek td sampai la solat sampai la skang ni rase semacam jek..

rase xsdp ati..

hmm mainan pasaan je kowt..

hmm another thing is..

aku dpt rase dye len sgt..

xmcm salu...

ntah la...aku rase aku jd takowt ngan dye..

sbb dye nmpk cam stress sgt999 and aku takowt kalo aku try tanye mcm2 kang dye mrh plak..

tp 2 la yg wat aku risau..

and aku cam terkilan gak dye xcontact aku coz im hoping dye akan celebrate my bday..

tape la...mayb bsok kowt...tp cane kalo dye lupe? cz dr td 1 single msg un xmasok dlm hp aku..

and aku un xpat contact dye coz xde kedit...

hmmm ape nak pikir skang ni spy ati ni tenteram sket ek???

another 17 10 2010

juz saw ur facebook

glad to see u happy during the weekend

but why there's tears running down my cheek?

oh

maybe im so glad to see u happy

while im not

mayb its true

u r forgetting me

juz wish i am one of ur happiness

juz like u r my happiness..

17 10 2010

u really leave me

dont u remember

all your promises to me

what happen to all those memories we shared together

dont u remember

the time that we spend together

u and i

the first movie i watched in cinema

district 9

what a boring movie

but it wasn't

cause you were there with me

dont u remember

the time that we celebrate my bday

you are the one who brought me downstairs

and i cried when i knew it was a surprise

i smile

dont u remember the time

when we had our dinner at pizza hut

we had our anniversary at manhattan fish market

when i told you it's expensive

and you dont mind to spend money on it

dont u remember the time when you bought lappy bag

and you gave me one small blue bag

as a present

dont u remember the time that we celebrate your bday

when i cried to celebrate yours

dont u remember all those moments we shared together

why you want to leave me now

when i gave everything to you

why you want to leave me alone

when i sincerely love you

and there's no doubt about my love for you

why you said you cant stand being with me

when i always have the patient to be with you

why all these happen when i thought you are going to take me out 4 dinner on my bday later..

17 10 2010

nape jadi cani..
nape kau xreply msg2 aku..
nape kau xjawab soalan2 aku..
kau dah tinggalkan aku ke..
tolong la jawab..
jangan buat aku macam ni..
kau mungkin xrase ape2..
tapi aku boleh jadi gila macam ni...

16 10 2010

happy birthday abah..
semoga Allah panjangkan umur abah & murahkan rezeki abah..
sory sbb plan xmenjadi..
and sampai skang un hadiah xbg lagi..
kalau la ela boleh jd kuat semangat mcm abah..
nape la susah sgt nak stop nangis..
pdhal org 2 dah lupekan aku un..
happy birthday abah..

15 10 2010

aku cube sebaik mungkin tok btolkan sumenye..tp nmpaknye mcm dah terlambat..trlambat kah aku? kalau boleh diputarkan mase aku xkan cakap mcm tu..kalau dapat diundurkan mase aku xkan buat ape2, aku akan duduk diam2 & tunggu sampai semua reda..nape aku xdpt sabar walau sekejap?padahal selama ni aku boleh sabar..aku penyabar..tapi nape mase tu aku xsabar???semuanye salah aku..kalau la aku sabar..mesti semua tak jadi macam ni..ya Allah..semuanye salah aku ya Allah...sekarang aku yg menderita ya Allah..ya Allah aku menyesal aku xsabar ya Allah...sungguh aku menyesal...aku menyesal sgt9999999999....ya Allah aku harap sangat aku diberi peluang tok betulkan semuanye...demi Allah aku menyesal...aku xkuat ya Allah..aku sangat menderita sekarang..kalau la kau tahu mcmane keadaan aku skarang...sanggup kah kau tengok keadaan aku?i miss u so much & i regret i said that to you..forgive me..

all that i'm after is life full of laughter

as long as i'm laughing with you

i'm thinking all that still matters is love ever after

cause i know there's no life after you

tamat sebuah kisah..

salam

14 10 2010

tamat sebuah kisah

punah janji2 manis

hilang semua kenangan

terima kasih

gabra..

salam..

wah cam bes jek tajuk ni..

ape tu gabra??

gabra ni species2 gelabah gak la..

adek bradek cuak..

wakaka..

nape ana post tajuk ni plak??

of cos la sbb ana ngah cuak..

sbb bsok ana ade interbiu AGAIN..

haih..

ana mmg xsuke interbiu coz ana ni lack of confident + xfluent english + xreti nak impress the interviewer..

adoiyai..

pdhal those things la yg plg dicari2 [ala2 X-factor la] tok dipilih..

wuwuwu..

camne ni?????

ana really seyesly cuak....

ok2 ana taw ape ana patot wat..

1) solat, bce quran, doa byk2 spye ana ok tyme interbiu tuh

2) prepare tol2 [yg mane ni lah punce utama ana cuak pasal xready2 ag]

3) mnx tlg kwn2 n parents so that ana ade semangat nak jwb soklan

wuwwuwuwuwuwuwuwuuu.....

ana CUAK...

friend..

salam..

ana mmg suke tajuk ni

sbb ana really learn a lot about friendship

frienship is really important in one's life

even owg yg da kawen un sgt perlukan kwn dlm hidup

ana mmg sgt terkilan coz i really didnt appreciate my frenz lately

not directly but indirectly

sorry frenz

i neglected u all

n bile da susah baru nak cari kowang

i was really being selfish

i started to realize all this when i was being scolded by someone

dat someone who believes frenz are very2 important in life

i didnt get angry of that statement

but the way that statement is being delivered was really penetrating deep into my heart

i feel it until the core of my heart

the way that statement was being delivered is the one which makes me moved

life isnt juz bout "that thing"

there are so many important things to look at

to take care of

especially our relationship with The Almighty

thanks Allah for Your guidance

ill try my very best to follow Your path

so that i wont be like dis anymore

so that ill be more appreciating

appreciate the life You gave to me

appreciate the people around me

appreciate the time You gave to me

so that ill become a better muslimah

even though there were so many bad things i did

even to myself

thanks Allah for everything that had happened in my life

coz i know all the things deliver a big message behind them

that i did change

changed to someone who seems to be far away from You

but i know You are forgiving

You are loving

You still loves me

and thats y all these things happened in mylife

for me to reflect myself

and correct myself

i had once promised to You

but i broke the promise

but You kept giving me opportunities

not once

not twice

not thrice

but so many times already

a friend of mine told me

"if you go anywhere and you find yourself in difficulties, dont panic coz ill always be there for you to help you"

a teacher of mine told me

"if someone really wants you, that person will straight away go tell your parents about it"

and she also told me

"dont ever give everything to people until that people be yours"

insyaAllah all those advices will always be in my heart

and i really need you guys my friends to guide n help me so that i wont go astray

luv u guys

luv You Allah

forgive all my sins

forgive all my fault

im juz an ordinary girl

who always make mistakes

im not perfect

but im trying to be

so that this phrase

"a good man is for a good woman and vice versa"

will come true

insyaAllah

salam

tak paham..

salam..

alhamdulillah ana da abeh exam..

tp baru abeh mock..

ade ag final..

wuwu..

kire2 3 minggu ag..

hmm ape yg ana xphm ek..

ntah la..

ana un xtaw ape ana nak tulis..

byk bnde jadi lately..

kesian kakak ana..

ana un xphm nape owg bley brubah ati camtu jek..

pdhal dah ade ikatan n xlame ag nak jd yg halal..

hmmm hati owg mmg xley nak duga kan..

ana mnx dijauhkan la bnde2 cani dr ana..

tape la kalo nak brubah skang..

jgn brubah bile sume da ciap..

malu family..

mane nak letak muka..

haih..

ana tol2 xphm..

kalo la ana kat tmpat kakak ana..

nauzubillah..

xtaw ape ana nak pkr & buat..

hmm ana blaja 1 perkare kat cni..

HATI MANUSIA MMG XLEY NAK DUGA..